(19): I want your hot love and emotion endlessly

(19): I want your hot love and emotion endlessly

Drake feat. Majid Jordan - Hold On, We're Going Home This is one of my fave songs from Drake. I like the beat; it makes me wanna dance :)

I was on Facebook this morning and I want to share to you my favorite FB page. Relationship Rules is  a very very helpful page for people who are broken, not broken, or going to be broken lol I am not saying I'm one of those. It's just when I read their posts I feel my worth as a woman. Let me share to you the posts that I really like.

(18): And it kills to say I knew you'd let me down

(18): And it kills to say I knew you'd let me down

I saw this "ask me stuff" on Tumblr and since I'm bored I'll answer these 91 questions. holyshit 91 o_o

  • 1. How many bruises on you right now?  -don't have any
  • 2. You talked to an ex today, correct? -yup!
  • 3. Have you stayed in a hospital? -yup!
  • 4. Is trust a big issue for you? -YES
  • 5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently? -No
  • 6. What are you excited for? -my future job
  • 7. What happened tonight? -nothing much, listened to music and searched for jobs
  • 8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted? -nope, YOLO
  • 9. Is confidence cute? -ofc
  • 10. What is the last beverage you had? -water
  • 11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust? -two. My grandpa and dad
  • 12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans? -haha yes
  • 13. What are you gonna do Saturday night? stay in front of laptop, listen to music, and look/apply for jobs
  • 14. What are you going to spend money on next? -transpo fee when I go to my hometown
  • 15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed? -nope
  • 16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months? -yes and I am excited for that change!!
  • 17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything? -no one tbh this world is full of judgmental people. I like talking to strangers online though
  • 18. The last time you felt broken? -oh...
  • 19. Have you had a soft drink today? -no i didn't have :'(
  • 20. Are you starting to realize anything? -yep realized it since last week
  • 21. Are you in a good mood? -50/50
  • 22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks? -no 
  • 23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s? -yup
  • 24. What do you want right this second? -travel
  • 25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy? -"you don't deserve my love"
  • 26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color? -yup. i dyed before though 
  • 27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh? -maybe no
  • 28. What was the last thing that made you laugh? -9gag.tv
  • 29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now? -yasss
  • 30. Does everyone deserve a second chance? -i guess so...?
  • 31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to? -I did
  • 32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do? -i don't like anyone right now tbh
  • 33. Are you one of those people who never drinks water? -who the f does not drink water?!
  • 34. Listening to? -https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=75shbkWBm8g
  • 35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore? -not anymore 
  • 36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is? -yes I know
  • 37. Do you believe in love at first sight? -yes
  • 38. Who did you last call? -my momma

(17): But you broke me, now I can't feel anything

(17): But you broke me, now I can't feel anything

It tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay
There's a lot of feels in this song haha :3

Anyway I saw this photo on Tumblr. I can say that this drawing is very creative/artistic and conveys a lot of meaning.

(16): I know that I can find somebody; you won't ever find nobody else like me

(16): I know that I can find somebody; you won't ever find nobody else like me

Who is Fancy - Goodbye HOLYSHITTTT I've just heard the bestest of best song ever!! (Sorry guys I don't know English) :DDD LISTEN TO THIS SONG AND YOU WON'T REGRET IT I SWEAR!! I'd say this is my type of music genre. Ahhh I am so in love with this I can't stop listening to it. fuck. Can you guys recommend other songs with the same genre? I really love this song omg this is going to stuck in my head for a week and on repeat for 837238948483 times!!! Hah sorry I just can't contain how much I'm in love with this :p 

And one thing before you watch the video, the singer is not the cute guy who looks like Justin Bieber. The singer is Jake Hagood, and yeah he's Fancy :)) I want to thank Spotify because if not from this app I won't be able to discover this song huehue :p I just don't understand why it has 3 videos and 3 different artists. According to one of the YT comments I saw:

She maybe right. I have no idea :p but I am going to search for the guy in the video and stalk him. He's so cute :( <3

(15): You believe in something stronger than trust

(15): You believe in something stronger than trust

I have known this song since last year and didn't know I'll love The Weeknd more with "Earned It" mehehe and oh, have you guys watched 50 Shades of Grey yet? For those of you who already read the book like me (I read all those 3 books 3 years ago), you don't really need to watch since it's 100% the same as the book. I watched it thru online streaming and my movie rating will be 8/10. The nice thing about the 50 shades I watched is they did not censor it haha so you can see Anastasia's tits and Christian's butt. Yep, you heard me right :D But if I watched it in the local cinema, it's going to be a waste of money since I would not see everything :p
It just annoys me when people don't like to watch it because according to them it's too sexual or it's porn or gross whatsoever. You've been saying "fuck" and "shit" all your life but don't have the guts to watch it?? Really? Some people can be innocent. And some people can be stupid of being innocent. Oh well....

(14): Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

(14): Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

I heard this song in a movie trailer of Jennifer Aniston. I forgot heh :)

Today's a good day!! I met my friends and Nikko. I met him during our internship. He's really a funny guy. Everyone should meet him! There is never a dull moment when the four of us are together. We just laugh and crack jokes at each other. And the best thing we don't forget is to take photos! :D
I just feel really bad and upset that I own a shitty phone! My battery dies really quickly so basically there's no photos of today on my phone. I will really buy an iPhone 6 when I get a job somewhere :p My battery drains even if I don't use it so when I'm home I always charge it T.T I know I have to buy a new battery instead of complaining huehue ;p

So today we toured Nikko in our uni. He studies in a different uni which was a bit far from us so yeah. After that, we had our lunch together at Yellow Cab! Nom nom!! We ordered regular size Corona Chicken Salsa and 2 Chicken Alfredo. And we went to karaoke afterwards hahaha it was really funny I actually enjoyed singing high notes as if I was a pro lol!! :P

But before the photos, I just want to have a small rant on what happened at the restaurant. There were a lot of students from uni beside us. They were having a mini farewell party to their professor, I guess? It's graduation season here in Philippines so I understand that. The thing is they were fucking loud. I mean it's okay to laugh til your stomach hurts or anything but why shout?! You have to remember that you are in a public place and you guys are NOT the only people dining in. There were more or less than 40 students on the first floor and around 20 students on the second floor and from same uni. Ughhh!! It was so annoying like srsly!! If you are having the best time of your life then go on but please be considerate! My friends and I barely talked because we could not hear each other. What a crowd!! >_<

Anyway, enough of the rant! Few photos from today!!

Nikko and I in front of our uni garden. He was like, "I want to take a photo but I'm shy cus I'm not a student here" haha silly guy!!

(13): And the salt in my wounds isn’t burning anymore than it used to

(13): And the salt in my wounds isn’t burning anymore than it used to

It’s not that I don’t feel the pain, it’s just I’m not afraid of hurting anymore
And the blood in these veins isn’t pumping any less than it ever has
And that’s the hope I have, the only thing I know that’s keeping me alive
 -Paramore - Last Hope
This song's on repeat! Everyone should listen to this :3 Lyrics + Paramore = perfection

Anyway I've been busy for the past few days. Yesterday I had my graduation picture taken. I waited for 7 hours to get everything done ugh. Sorry no photos yet because it's actually not allowed but I did "few" selfies when I got home.

Yep our thesis is done!! But wait, is there a word "percertion"? I highly doubt it. Do your job well, please.

Was drinking coffee few mins ago. The reason why I sleep at 2 or 3 AM.

(12): I dont even know if I believe everything you try to say to me

(12): I dont even know if I believe everything you try to say to me

Lyrics is from Mumford & Sons' Believe. Not sure if you're into that kind of music but it wouldn't hurt to listen.

I've been overthinking a lot. And when I say a lot, its literally a lot. Sometimes I want to write my own book. Well this blog is actually a start. I want to get away and stop thinking/worrying about things that are happening for the past few days. I actually want to meet someone who is like me. Online or not, I don't care. Just someone who I can share my feelings with, someone who will really understand me, someone who have felt and experienced what I am going through. I know overthinking is bad for my health but I can't help it, really. I want to open up with people but I'm scared they might judge or misinterpret me. I hate being like this. I don't know what to do. Yes people will tell me to stop it but how? Its easy to say T~T overthinking is bad and as much as possible I want to be happy and live for a moment where I don't have to deal with shit that people put up. I'm really thankful for my online friend Monica because she helps me deal with things and gives me advice as well. I really really need help. If only I could pull out my brain T-T I don't even know what to do with my life anymore. I wish things was easier like before. I tell people good stuff and/or give them encouraging words but I can't even do that to myself. I say, "you'll be fine Kattie" but until now I'm still like this. I keep lying to myself T~T I know I won't be fine until I stop overthinking but how can you stop it when you have a fucking brain? If people would say that to me then I should blame God for giving me this tool to think ><

(11): We've lost romance this world has turned so see through open your mind, believe it's going to come to

(11): We've lost romance this world has turned so see through open your mind, believe it's going to come to

The truth is that relationships sometimes die – and the love that once was goes along with them. Time changes people. People change people. The love that you once had too often fades or burns up in a blaze and the person that once meant the world to you is suddenly a stranger.
More likely than not, that person no longer even exists. You may find yourself still part of a relationship in which your partner has become a stranger.
You may have spent the last few years together only to now have to accept that the person you wake up next to every morning isn’t the person you remember once waking up next to. They changed. You changed. The lovers that once were no longer exist. 
Finding out that the person you loved is no longer the person you love is an incredibly frightening realization. The two of you, though living in such close quarters, have managed to lose each other. 
from: http://elitedaily.com/dating/sex/the-one-is-now-somebody-you-used-to-know/744519/


If I would describe what I feel right now in a movie quote/s, I'd say it's 500 Days of Summer.


Tom: "Well this is, and Rhoda, no disrespect, but um, this is total shit. Go for it? You can do it? That's not inspirational that's suicidal! If pickles goes for it right there that's a dead cat. Lies, were liars think about it, why do people buy these things? It's not because they wanna say how they feel, people buy cards cause they can't say how they feel or they're afraid too. We provide the service that lets them off the hook. You know what? I say to hell with it. Lets level with America at least let them speak for themselves right I mean look, look. What is this, what does this say? "Congratulations on your new baby." How bout "congratulations on your new baby, guess that's it for hanging out, nice knowing ya." How bout this one? With all the pretty hearts on the front, I think I know where this ones going. Yup "Happy Valentines Day sweetheart, I love you." Isn't that sweet? Ain't love grand? This is exactly what I'm talking about. What does that even mean, love? Do you know? Do you? Anybody? If somebody gave me this card Mr. Vance, I'd eat it. It's these cards, and the movies and the pop songs, they're to blame for all the lies and the heartache, everything. We're responsible. I'M responsible. I think we do a bad thing here. People should be able to say how they feel, how they really feel, not ya know, some words that some stranger put in their mouth. Words like love, that don't mean anything. Sorry, I'm sorry, I um, I quit. There's enough bullshit in the world without my help."

(10): 4 Ways You Open Your Eyes When You Cut The Toxic Relationship Cord

(10): 4 Ways You Open Your Eyes When You Cut The Toxic Relationship Cord

from: http://elitedaily.com/dating/4-ways-open-eyes-cut-toxic-relationship-cord/959226/
I should make it a habit to read this every time I'm in pain.

Congratulations. You finally did it. You deserve a f*cking medal.
It wasn’t easy. In fact, it might have been one of the hardest things you’ve ever done.
Having the courage to let go of “that” toxic person is not easy. A relationship that, in your mind, was meant to be so much more, finally ended.
This person had a power over you — emotionally, physically, or both — for so long. You might have dated him or her on the side or been together for eight years. Sometimes, the length of time isn’t even a factor.
Let me define “that” person: It’s who you always had in the back of your mind when you were out with friends; you wondered if he or she would ever send a text to meet up after.
You two might occasionally hook up, but never go to dinner. He or she may have made you feel “crazy” at times for wanting to spend more time together, but on his or her terms. Whatever the situation, it went on for too. damn. long.
At this point, I can feel you rolling your eyes, thinking, “Why would anybody waste their time on some person who doesn’t give a damn?” You may even call us weak. And, you’re absolutely right.
I did feel weak and pathetic, but that feeling is long gone.
More often than not, the relationships from which we learn the most are the ones that fail. If nothing else, take the lessons and move on, entirely for yourself. Now that the chains (emotional) are finally broken, how do you feel?
Maybe you had that “a ha!” moment, when you decided you’re worth more than 10 of “that” person put together.
For me, it was as if I woke up one day and finally pulled my head out of my ass; what happened after that was a glorious thing.
The positives sh*t on the negatives. You thought you’d be stuck in this torture until another person came along, right?
Well, you’re better than that.

You Hold The Power

For whatever reason, we let this person get under our skin and linger in our thoughts.
We blame it on the relationship feeling “unfinished,” almost like there’s a tiny glimpse of hope the person could suddenly wake up one day and want to be with us. This hope could go on for days, months or even years.
We make excuses for them like, “S/he’s just focusing on her/his career right now,” “S/he just needs to get her/his ducks in a row,” or my personal favorite, “S/he doesn’t have time to date.”
Whatever we tell ourselves during this time is a complete lie. But, yet, we refuse to believe the truth.
You finally grasp hold of the radical concept that people make time for the things that are important to them. It’s strangely simple, but strangely hard to keep in mind.
After letting go of this person, the excuses fade. Now, the explanation becomes “I’m worth more.”
If you’ve never had to struggle with letting go, you’re lucky. I envy you. If you have, you know this situation all too well.
For the first time in a long time, it’s a truly liberating feeling.

(9): Someday love will find you

(9): Someday love will find you

you never treated me right,
you never cared for me like i did you,
you never put me first. 
but i loved you more
then i even loved myself,
and here i am,
broken heart and all,
with a rough ice hand
holding the pieces of my heart together. 
but don’t worry. 
i’ll find someone else
who will finally treat me 
the way i deserve. 

(8): Who would have thought that you'd be bad for my health?

(8): Who would have thought that you'd be bad for my health?

New music video of The Script! Holyshit this song is amazing ahhhh I could listen to this forever!

No, I can't look down
I'm trying to fight the feeling
I will fall to the ground
If I ever see you

'Cause I feel like I'm walkin' on a tightrope

My heart is in my throat
I'm counting on high hopes to get me over you
And I've got my eyes closed
As long as the wind blows
I'm counting on high hopes to get me over you, you
Cause I'm a man on a wire, on a wire
I'm a man on a wire, on a wire



I like songs that I can apply to my current situation. It feels as if the singers know how I feel, it feels as if they are there to comfort me when I feel down or broken.

(7): If you can wait til I get home then I swear come tomorrow this will all be in our past

(7): If you can wait til I get home then I swear come tomorrow this will all be in our past

My current fave song and on repeat for 138482391439 times already!
A Day To Remember - If It Means A Lot To You

Today's been a tough day. Two final exams and my brain was drained plus I'm hurting inside.

(6): Everything that's broke leave it to the breeze

(6): Everything that's broke leave it to the breeze

James Bay - Let It Go - one of my faves from James Bay <3

Anyway I am an avid follower of thoughtcatalog.com and when I logged in on Facebook, saw this article from them titled 30 Would-You-Rather Questions To Help You Figure Out What Kind Of Person You Should Be With. I find this very interesting as a woman from her mid 20s so I might as well answer and share it to the public.

1. Would you rather date someone who’s highly ambitious about their career, or someone who cares more about passions outside of work? I'd rather date someone who cares more about passions outside of work because that will include me. 

2. Would you rather be with someone who wants to start a family in the very near future, or someone who’d like to wait a few years to really figure things out? I'd rather be with someone who'd like to wait a few years to really figure things out. I'm not in a hurry settling down. I don't want to have any regrets in the future. Marriage doesn't scare me. Giving birth does =/

3. Given the choice, would you want to be in a relationship in which one of you eventually becomes the primary income source and the other is the primary caregiver, or would you rather be in a relationship where both of you work? I'd want to be in a relationship where both of us are working ofc. I don't want to stay home and do household chores. I don't want to be a plain girlfriend/housewife. I want to be productive. I want to go out and earn money for myself. There are things I want to buy that my boyfriend/husband won't let me buy so I still want to work and earn for it. Well you can be productive at home, too, but it's different when you work outside.

4. Would you rather be with a thrill-seeker, who likes to travel and skydive and try various dangerous things, or would you rather date someone who is more calm and serene? I'd rather be with a thrill-seeker who likes to travel BUT not to try dangerous things =/ I prefer someone who likes to travel. For me, it is one of the best things when you have a partner. You get to travel and experience different adventures with him. And by that you create wonderful memories together. :)

5. Do you want to be with someone who’s confrontational and places the problem right on the table, or someone who approaches issues between you in a more careful, gentle way? I actually think I am the type of person who's confrontational and places the problem right on the table. Like if I found out about something I will ask him right away. But I want to be with someone who approaches issues in a more careful and gentle way. I'm an emotional person so I pretty much need someone who is very comforting.

6. Would you rather date someone who’s interested in a very active social life, with parties and events and activities every other night, or someone who’s more of a homebody, and prefers to stay in with you or hang out in smaller, quieter groups? I like someone who's more of a homebody and prefers to stay in with me. I like to just stay indoor, drink beer, watch movies, etc. If ever I want to get pretty wasted, I'd rather stay home :D

7. Would you rather be with a night owl or an early bird? NIGHT OWL hell yeah!!

8. Do you want to be with someone who prefers to watch comedies or dramas and thrillers? ALL OF THE ABOVE.

(5): I fall in love just a little old little bit everyday with someone new

(5): I fall in love just a little old little bit everyday with someone new

Hozier - Someone New https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=94kiYQ5StXI

Yesterday was such a bad day. My group mates and I had our thesis defense and it was awful >< One of the panelists said it was a "bad paper". He had high expectation from us I guess. I felt bad actually but oh well what to do now, it's already done. All we need to do is revise our paper from Chapter 1 to 5 before Friday and we're good! I have 2 final exams on Monday and the 3rd one is only a critical analysis. Easy peazy~ I need to study this week but I'm still busy moving out our things. My study table, my shelf, my paper works are already in our new room. Our things are not settled yet so it's really hard for me to focus and study T~T
Anyway few photos!!

One of the panelists wrote A LOT of things that we have to change on our paper. I haven't gone through it as I was busy but hopefully I can start editing some parts on Monday night ><

(4): I was so high I did not recognise the fire burning in your eyes

(4): I was so high I did not recognise the fire burning in your eyes

This Love - Maroon 5. Gotta love Adam Levine

Holy crap do you know what time is it?!!!! Its fucking 4:43 AM and I'm blogging on my phone! Gahhhh I slept at fucking 3 am because my dad snores sooooo loudly then my mom woke up at fucking 4 am and I'm not fucking used to sleeping on my sister's bed like what the fuck is happening I have reports and thesis defense today let me fucking sleep, people!!!!!
Ughhh why now why you gotta do these things now c'monnnnn!!! Oh and mind you I have 3 pimples on my cheeks now because I always sleep late kdiwidhdbdiwydyxjsbdkxisjensbziwlmwmw I'm so fucking pissed!!!! And I'm so hungry at the moment I'm thinking if I should get up at fucking 5 am and have coffee or something and stay up til 6 AM and shower and go uni. What the fuck! Ahhhhhhhh I'm seriously not used to having my parents around!!!!! Let me sleep please!!!!! ><

(3): Only love can hurt like this

(3): Only love can hurt like this

Paloma Faith's Only Love Can Hurt Like This. Totes an amazing song!!

I sold my cats... They're gone.... Where are they now... T~T
I admit it was one of the saddest things that happened to me. I couldn't explain what I felt this morning before meeting the buyer. My cats were dying to go out of the box like they did not want to leave me :< Milky left a scratch on my arm because he really wanted to go out >< 
When I was in the meeting place, I talked a bit to the new owner. She was nice. Based on her personality she will really take care of my beloved babies. The hardest part was saying goodbye to them... T~T I checked Milky and Lollie inside the box (they were in two different boxes) and said bye-bye. I was already teary-eyed but bursted out crying while walking away from them :'( I was with my sister but she did not say anything because she knows what I was feeling. People were looking at me but I did not care. The whole time we were waiting for taxi my mind was only about cats. I was like, "my cats.... I'm sad, I don't want to leave them.... :(" Ugh this makes me cry right now. I miss them so much! They are annoying at times but I love them :'( The amount of money I got from selling them is nothing compared to the happiness they gave me :<

I miss you both Milky and Lollie <3 <3 <3 :(((

(2): Sure I can accept that we're going nowhere but one last time let's go there

(2): Sure I can accept that we're going nowhere but one last time let's go there

The title of the song is Last Request by Paolo Nutini. 
Here's the video if you want to listen to it :)
It was 2006 or 07 when I first heard this song on MYX. I like listening to sad/love songs ever since I was a teenager. I discovered this new artist which I'm not gonna mention for now cus I wanna blog about him, but anyway yeah, while I was browsing some songs of this "artist" I saw the name Paolo Nutini and the first thing that came to my mind is his song "last request". I listened to the song right away and it brought back a lot of memories. Ahhh those were the days xD

(1): Sick of all the insincere, I'm gonna give all my secrets away

(1): Sick of all the insincere, I'm gonna give all my secrets away

"...sick of all the insincere, I'm gonna give all my secrets away" - Secrets, OneRepublic

Yep a new blog AGAIN. I think I'm just bored or my life is kinda boring heh. I feel like I want to have a new theme in blogging or maybe a bit different aura of myself. Anyway...

This week has been very very stressful. Uni works like thesis, reports, and homework are stressing the fuck out of me like UGHHHHHH. Moving in to the other apartment room downstairs and selling my cats added to my list of worries, as well. I just want to accomplish everything this week so I can relax and enjoy the taste of freedom!

I am going to sell my cats tomorrow. I am having mixed feelings right now because I love them both but at the same time I want them to have a better home since I am busy and I am going to leave the country soon when I get my visa. I feel like a bad mom for letting my babies go but I guess I am not ready to be a "real mom". They will be very missed T.T My mom was like,"what?! You will sell them?" I know she hates cats but she also knows that I love them. I was hugging Milky and telling him to be nice to his new owner and he was like, "meow" as if he understood me :D

I'm guessing you don't know what my cats look like so here are the photos!


Fat Milky is fat :p