(161): Back in my shell

Hi guys! I know I’ve been MIA for the past weeks (or month). I’ve been busy with so many things. I was broke (and still am) for weeks – I spent a lot of money in Phnom Penh, Cambodia (details after this). How have you been? If you ask me, I’m grand. Broke but grand. I will get paid tomorrow and Thursday next week so looking forward to receiving more ka-ching!

So what the hell happened to me over the past weeks? Read below:

1.    I went to Phnom Penh, Cambodia on the last week of July for my working visa. So many things had happened at the time and I don’t really want to go into details because of reasons. I stayed there for a week – imagine going out of the country for a week! (hence I’m broke) I had to pay $196 for my working visa plus accommodation ($34) plus food and transportation. Glad I went through with it! Here are some photos I took during my visit:

2.    School year 2017-2018 had officially started on the 7th of August so yep I’m back to work! I work the whole day every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday and half day (in the afternoon) every Tuesday and Thursday. Not bad, right? The language centre I work at also gave me more teaching hours so starting in September I will work 6-7 hours during the weekends. I have to work 7 days a week again lol

3.    I’m seeing a French guy. I don’t really want to say “I'm dating a French guy” because dating does not exist in France (based on my research). And I don’t want to say he’s my boyfriend because there’s “no talk” about it – it just happened. I meant the kiss. I first met him on Tinder and we met in person during his 2nd day here in Vietnam. I was not expecting that our friendship will take us to the “next level”. On our third dinner together we had Filipino foods and then went to Bui Vien for drinks. I think each of us had 4 glasses of craft beer so you can say we’re kinda tipsy after that. We headed to Donkey (a famous bar in BV) and the famous French kiss happened. I have no idea how many times or how long we kissed; all I know is that we both enjoyed our time together. Three days later we met again for dinner and when I arrived he kissed me on the lips. I was like, “wait what?” I pretended I was not surprised but at the back of my head I was screaming for happiness (???????) I mean I am physically attracted with him the moment I saw him because he looks very handsome and manly (well Europeans are good looking! No doubt about it) We still see each other until now and it has now become our tradition to kiss on the lips when we arrive and leave at our meeting place. There are just two things that bother me:

a.    I don’t know if we are a couple because there’s really no talk about it but we kiss so…. I don’t know what I’m blabbing about but for me it’s not official cus we don’t talk about labels. I’m one of those people who still need to label relationships (BEEN THERE DONE THAT). I don’t know about him but whenever we go home he kisses me three times on the lips and I think that’s very romantic. BUT WHAT DOES THAT MEAN? JUST DEFINE THE RELATIONSHIP! One of these days I will have the guts to ask him the infamous question: What are we?

b.    He’s leaving for Canada then France on the last week of September and I am not sure if he’s coming back. If God hears my prayers then I’ll be lucky. If not then better luck next guy, Kattie.

It's weird and sweet at the same time how French people make a big deal about the kiss. I read that if you kiss him or vice versa, then congratulations! You are now exclusive and in a relationship. Of course that does not work for every French people, but it's kinda applicable to my situation. (What do you think?) Don't worry I'll make a separate blog post about this.

4.    Recently I’ve been watching a lot of French movies and out of 4 or 5 I have watched, there’s only 1 I liked the most. I like watching romantic comedy movies but there’s always, ALWAYS, ALWAYS (I don’t know how much more I should emphasize this) cheating/infidelity involved in the story and some of the characters SEEM ok about it. I know it’s just a movie but somehow it reflects the culture of a country (talk about the French previous presidents lol). I talked to Adrien about it and he asked me to choose between: accept it and move on or be single at 45? My answer: be single at 45. I don’t want to be a martyr for love. If you’re not happy, leave. Avoid abuse; accept annoyance. Who cares if you’re single/single mother? That’s why you work to earn money. Seriously though. Again. CULTURAL DIFFERENCES. Can’t argue with that. But I’m going to argue with the fact that cheating/infidelity is UNACCEPTABLE and I won’t tolerate it.

5.    Going back to the previous topic, I already deleted my Tinder app. My account is still there but my profile is hidden so for sure no guys will be able to check it. If you’re asking why I deleted the app, well the answer is obvious. I don’t need to meet other guys if I’m already seeing this French guy a.k.a Adrien.

6.    When it comes to being punctual, I am proud to say that I have improved. When I meet Adrien or friends, I make sure I arrive ahead of time. Also, I’ve never been late in class except the time when it was raining heavily and the Grab driver took 48 years to pick me up.

So many things had happened/have been happening around me and I’m telling you this is just a gist of my story. I really need to get my shit together and get back into writing. You have no idea how much I missed blogging. I was stressed when I came back to Vietnam because I had little money left and had to wait 3 weeks before I get paid. I still check my blog from time to time to see what’s up but I was not in the mood to blog. Now the long wait is over because I’m getting paid soon and I can spend my hard-earned money on clothes and food and whatnot (but I owe people a lot of money so….)!!

I’m guessing this has got to be one of the longest blog posts I’ve ever written. Sorry not sorry. It’s understandable since I didn’t blog for more than a month. To end this, I’m still here. Still alive and kicking! Looking forward to getting more work and $$. The future is bright and so am I :)

Til my next blog post,
Kattie ♡